Always alienated, never felt like I belong anywhere. When my cousins started talking their own in-reverse language and not letting me in their sorority-like games, I would just turn away and head somewhere where I'm alone, usually the river side or somewhere inside the woods. When my other cousins and brothers starts to play football, I would just head to the baby palm trees and make friends with the green little frogs that resided on the palm leaves, believing that one could be my prince (don't worry, didn't try to kiss one). I never felt that I belonged, or fit anywhere. Never myself, but nature was the only place where I felt connected. It shade a shadow on my life then, a sheltered love, there, I was never alone. I felt understood with nature and free to be. There I belonged. Till now, sometimes, I feel like I still don't belong and unconnected to this world… I hated reality, and part of me still do. Day dreams is where I lingered, and remained. The process was indigenous.
A Case In Point: Wear red polos and pencil high wastes to emphasize your waist when dropping by the grocery store for summer longed for fruits. Blend in with summer's quirky mood, by romancing a casual bright tennis player look, only off the track!