A Letter To My Younger
Dear my teenage self,
Hey there, don’t freak out, but it’s you sending you from the future! I come to in one of important stages of your early twelve, so listen to me. When age of twelve and up, you will start to notice that you are having extra care toward women and when you are getting older, you will discover that what you are feeling is not just a care for women…it is more than that!
To understand your feelings you must believe in yourself first and know that what you are feeling is true, at this age you will start to have some imaginations about you and maybe some of the superstars being together or with one of your classmate girls which you will end up asking yourself many questions about your nature and why it is little different from the other girls around you. Do not be afraid or shocked of such feelings because it is normal, all you have to do is to start to find out what is extra about you than all the girls around you. You will discover that you have a great heart, a deeper vision of the things around you, you are more sensitive than the others and you can fall deeply in love with girls only.
No need to blame yourself for what you were created like, this is your role in life and when it comes to love, you have the right to love the gender that you like. You are not doing any mistake in this, you are just being yourself, so be proud of what you are and do not be ashamed of it.
The society around you might not give you the chance to speak it out or even tell the most closet persons to you because of the rejection to your nature, these things should not discourage you to continue in exploring yourself and expressing your feelings.
Remember that you are not alone and there are millions of lesbians around you, all you need to do is to discover where they are. You might meet them at your school or at your college or even later on at your work, just do not lose hope at all.
First of all let us talk about the small society around you which is your family, in the Middle East society it is rare that your family will accept and respect your feelings so you better be careful of talking about your nature to your family. So you have to think how you can live with two different personalities until you can reach out for your freedom of expressing your sexual concerns. Or if you are lucky enough you can have a great family that will understand your feelings and respect it. But If your family is against what you feel, you still need to love them and respect them without any hatred at all, at the end they will still remain your family.
Just do your best not to gain enemies from your family or the society around you because you want to prove to them how the lesbian acting is, and by your good actions they will be forced to accept you and respect you.
Study hard till you finish your course and get high results, show them that being a lesbian will not affect anything in your life or your studies on the contrary, you are happy and that is why your performance is great.
Stick to the good morals that will represent you very well and speaks about you and avoid any bad attitude that will bring you shame and it will affect all the other lesbians. Always put in mind that by your deeds you are representing an entire society of lesbians all over the world, so you must represent it perfectly in all what you do.
Last but not least, be proud of what you are and never be ashamed of it, try to prove to the world how good you are through your good actions and do not let bad comments affect you, most important to be strong enough to stand and move on in your life, cause I’m a great person that you’ll like to meet one day.